I'm Throwing Myself A Pity Party & Everyone Is Invited...

I've been feeling really sorry for myself lately. Any ideas on how to fix this? My hormones are all out of whack, so I'm hardly losing any weight. Thus I don't feel very pretty. And I'm hungry. I'm stuck in a dead end job that doesn't make me feel very smart. That used to be my one go to: at least I was smart. Now I just feel stupid. It seems like no matter how hard I try (at anything) I'm just spinning my wheels. I'm sure everyone has felt like this at some point but I could use some advice as to how to get out of this funk & get my confidence back.

So I haven't been drinking now for about 2 weeks. I feel like I'm not funny anymore. Maybe that was my crutch. I didn't notice it for the month that I wasn't drinking before (I guess because of my elation about the baby), but now I notice it. I'm sure it's better for my health (especially as I start trying to "prepare" my body for another baby) but it's certainly not better for my ego.

As the fall comes up I hope that puts me in a better mood. Maybe I'll go out & run more (& not feel like I'm absolutely dying of a heat stroke). Most days I just want to go home, lay on the couch with my doggies and watch Intervention. That always makes me feel better about my life. Every weekday morning I want to cry because I don't want to wake up and go to work. When oh when will I just get to lay in bed all day & feel sorry for myself? No one (especially Lee, Steph, etc) will ever let me & maybe that's a good thing.

On a happier note I finally paid off all my remaining credit card debt today (not that it was crazy, just from Cancun & the deck). So I do feel a little lighter (in my pocketbook especially). Tell you what though, I would rather feel lighter in this block of a body than in my pocketbook.